When you say nothing at all, but not for real

Saturday, 10.16 a.m

Good day everyone..

Now, I just want to share about the sentences "when you say nothing at all, but not for real".

Actually it's a little bit confusing words, because if you say that you feel nothing, so it means, you really have nothing to think about. But in this case, it's just a way to pretend that you don't feel anything, but for real you can't lie that you feel something..

I know..

It's not good for your mind and also for your heart, because you lie not only yourselves, but also the others.

Yups ! But could you think the consequence you can get if you say the truth but it againts your expectation ?

It's so unpredictable, yup !

So, what I feel right now, it's like a crazy stuff with no direction, I feel like a confused one and I don't how to express it. Is it love ? I don't know...

But I think I don't really know about LOVE, because there is no absolute defintion about LOVE ?

I can't tell anyone at this moment, but I try to find my way to know about what it is.

If you tell about "LOVE" , so who's the girl or boy ?

Because I'm a boy, so who's the girl ? (I'm not a same-sex lovers) haha

The girl who often come into my mind is....

Well, I don't want to tell her name here cuz it's a little bit embarrasing.. :D

The traits (character) as follows.. 

1. She is good looking, of course..

2. She is smart and friendly

3. I think she loves adventure, the same like me..

4. She doesn't talk too much, and she's so mysterious..

They are what I can share to you.. Who is she..?

Haha. Sorry for the question, because I'm not sure if I tell her name here, she will not get mad or even accept it.. :D

So... It's better to secretive her name for a moment...

Yeah, that's what I feel on these few days...

I'm confused of this feeling..

I don't know what I should do, and how to express it...

She is awesome !! yup..

Maybe, pretending is a better way to show the way, but sometime it can be just a beautifull lie !

Because it's better to tell the truth although it's so painful... owwgh !! 

Well, I think that's all.

And see you next time..! :)